Frustrating day on the scale!!

        So if you recall, I started this challenge at the gym the day after Valentine's Day. My initial weigh in was at the gym after work ( which I hate weighing in at any time other than first thing in the morning with nothing on to get my lowest weight possible.......just like many of you I'm sure!!) and every Thursday for 10 weeks we are supposed to weigh in at the gym. Well since I work all day and again hate weighing in at night I made arrangements with the organizer to weigh in on my own scale and text her the picture every Thursday...yeah!!! Great plan!!

        For the first few weeks it was going good. I was weighing myself and some weeks the scale was going down a pound or two and once or twice I didn't lose and the scale stayed the same. I was happy with the progress that I was slowly making though!! Fast forward to about a week and a half ago...... I stepped on the scale after what wasn't a great week of staying on track expecting the scale to stay the same and it said that I had lost 5 pounds.....WHAT??!??! I was soooo excited!! Maybe it was my weeks of working hard finally catching up to me?? But then I started second guessing that maybe my scale wasn't right. But how could that be? It had started out right and slowly over the weeks my scale was going down. My clothes were looser so that had to be right. So all week long I was stepping on the scale and it was still going down. I was really starting to doubt that my scale was right. 8 years ago I had done Weight Watchers and had gotten down to 151 pounds and was wearing a size 8 and the scale was now saying that number again but just knew deep down that wasn't right. Plus even though I had gone from a size 12 to a 10 the last few weeks there was no way I was getting into my 8's. All week long was this mental argument of whether I was really that low on my weight and my body had just changed over the years or was the stupid scale wrong this whole time. So I waited till weigh in day ( last Thursday) and stepped on the scale and it said 147 lbs. I knew at that moment that it was wrong!! I decided to weigh with my gym clothes and then go to the gym and weigh on their scale just to see the difference and I was distraught to find that my scale was off by almost 20 lbs?!??! Are you kidding me???? I was so depressed all day!! All this time I thought that what I was doing was working and it wasn't. I should have worked harder...... I should have pushed myself more......I wasted all these weeks of the challenge and I have lost almost nothing on the scale!! I had my pity party and let my depression over the scale bring my day down. I vented to my boyfriend and workout partner about my discovery. Their responses??........." That is a bummer but YOU lost a pants size!! That is awesome!! Who cares what the scale says!! " You know what?.......They are right!!! The scale is just a number.

        How much do we base everything on that STUPID little number on the scale?? We let it control us, run our lives, decide on whether we are going to be in a good mood or depressed or down right ANGRY. What is our ultimate goal......... to be HEALTHY and active and of course as vain as it sounds.........look good physically!! Sooooo even though as tempted as I was to just say screw it to the challenge and not weigh in the last 2 weigh in's of the challenge I am going to finish what I started and then after that final weigh in I am not going to step on the scale for a little while. I am going to focus solely on how I feel and how my clothes fit. I am going to push myself more and more every day!!  After all.......That is the most important thing.....right??